From The Heart

Hi, Bill,

I am glad that I found your entry in the midst of the avalanche of entries. Heartfelt, honest and deeply emotional! Good job...

Khotan Shahbazi-Harmon
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Looking back & in retrospect:

I regret never having recorded him, ever while he was alive, but his voice is always in my head...he called me every night, almost without fail, so we coul talk, read poetry to each other, he would tell me some funny thing David Letterman would do on his late night talk show, etc...he died while I was on a tribal canoe journey to Canada...he had CHF for years & battled alcoholism...but he had a massive heart attack & was put on life support(without me) & I was not there to say goodbye...my family made the decision to take him off life support & I was able to come down for his service, which I read a poem at. It was the hardest day of my life & I still tear up often thinking about him. I would like to do a piece about him, like you did...but I would suggest sound beds...the chirp of a heart monitor , or music they liked...I could read an excerpt from a poem he wrote or a short bible reference he hignlighted in his dog-earred bible that my oldest son now has...*sigh* I don't feel like he is gone, though I have his ashes & will scatter them soon in the Pacific Ocean, where they will travel with his best friend on the waves, that suddenly & without warning took his best friend's life...life & death are part of life, we all know...but good radio like what you are offering, helps with acceptance & healing & will help others move through their grief. Thanks for the offer...please get in touch with me at some point... robin.carneen@gmail.com

I have an entry on here too...always looking for justice, visabily & forgiveness & understanding...In & Around Indian Country

Prayers for you & yours that have suffered & experienced this loss, Robin Carneen

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I posted on your discusion about collaborators, but I'll add here that your story, your writing is a gift and sharing it with others takes strength, and sometimes just happens one word at a time. I've been working on a book about my mother, who passed away when I was 13. And I just lost my father last year.... Losing a parent, or anyone close to you sucks at any age, though.

I hope you continue-- if not through this contest then through other means. You have a nice voice, your pacing was good, and the story compelling

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Your few words allow space for the emotion. This is personal and profound.

Bill:

This is a fine submission--darkly honest and sincere. I can't help following your voice and your narrative. You have a patience in your voice that evokes trustworthiness--a key ingredient for any host, in my opinion.

Jay

Bill, this is a powerful and moving entry. And even more so because it is so intensely personal and you don't seem to hold back. I lost both my parents just over a year ago - like you, I was with my mother as she lay dying of cancer. I don't think I'd have the wherewithal to speak so eloquently of her passing as you have. You deserve to have much more radio time to share your thoughts and experiences. Thank you for telling your story to me... to us all.

-- Linda

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